Start of the day with being a little late, getting accidentally banged on the shoulder by someone and to the stupid teacher scolding. WTF me and M.Y were discussing lo _|_ i'm just beginning to like her stupid lesson and she goes out and ruins it. i havent let it go, its super stupid! sigh, maybe i should learn to shut up and be stupid.

Went home, and out back to training. yes, training sucks. The one thing i realised about the guys in the team is that they sorta only care when i get high scores. And when i was down, yep, they didn't bother. All the hi-5's, one of them even said "You don't have to bother to Hi-5 her" in a playful way i guess, but somehow it pierced. I mean i was feeling really down, and all they do is add more salt to a wound. Only Kevin i suppose is able to life my burden up a little. I expected them to boost my strength, but they brought me down. Idk, i just felt ignored at that moment, and that hurt.

So off to pick up my sis and to go eat. I was thinking about a lot of stuff and when i tried to get in on the conversation, yes i was ignored once again. My older sis, yeah, she announce it sort of, and that got me sad i suppose. I started having tears in my eyes and then it fell. Idk, Monday really sucks for me. I feel most neglected and i'm the only one who knows.

Whatever, i know i'm not the best thing, i'm just average. I'm trying to live up to high expectations from my team, and sometimes i just can't do it okay? I'm just a girl. Average, and sometimes i play good, sometimes not. Sigh, oh yeah, i sprained my freaking wrist. Oh well, more reasons to hate mondays.