"if he breaks ur heart, made u cry, crushes u so easily, wake up, slap yourself. think back, did he made u happy ? is he worth crying for ? did he really meant that much to u ? Quit getting upset over these things, it happens ALL THE TIME. u just have to forget it, u know what u want and what u did to get what u want. don't hate him, just because things doesn't go ur way. life is NEVER fair. if fate doesn't allow you and him to be together, then be it. u can't change fate no matter how badly u want it to. this is tough, but just breathe. u'll find someone else who treasures you more than u treasure him and someone who will fix your broken heart. "

well, yes, he means a lot to me, and he definitely made me happy like idk what. and yes, i cnt bring myself to hate him, cos he's like the only ONE who i tell my deepest secrets to, the one i share everything with. he made me happy just by being there for me, advicing me, cheering me up and for being the original him :) he's one of a kind and i'm glad he entered my life. cos he made me realise so many things that i've been blind to. and he made me trust again. he's the closest thing i had to someone i can depend on everytime and for that, i won't hate u. i thank you. and one more thing. i just want him to be happy. cos if he is happy, i'll be happy wherever i am.

thanks for the advice bro, i still love you :)