If above is the meaning of love than, i havent felt what its like to be in love in the first place. my xs would probably hate me for this but i didn't noe what its like to be loved by someone who doesnt have blood relations. after all this time in relationships, things that made me happy, made me smile, made me laugh isn't what love is all about. feeling it in my heart and soul is what its about i guess. and i didn't feel it. well i thot i did, but to think back,i didnt. i've mistook it for happiness which i shud have realised it earlier. prolly why none of them lasts. the quiz was right. i am afraid of commitment. which i will not give to anyone. only to the one who promised me and convinced me that he will be the one to bring the r/s up and never letting it fall. wow, that was cheesy -.-

sudden feeling of posting this. maybe cos i'm bored? or maybe i do feel sth?

my heart rate shud be racing when i go near the person that i love. i shud be sweating just walking past him and i shud be dancing round my room every night just because he talks to me. wait a min, it all sounds like a crush.